Friday, December 17, 2010

Due Date

Today was supposed to be Ella's due date. It would have been a really interesting one too, had she come today, with all of the ice we got last night. I think it probably would have been my first home birth! But luckily because of the ice Jacob stayed home today which helped keep my mind off of it being her due date. We just hung out and watched T.V and baked some gingerbread cookies. It was a pretty good day, really. But now that the day is coming to a close I am kinda sad. Her due date kind of feels like the last little piece of her. And now it is almost over. The day that should have been her's.

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She'll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
ain't even grey, but she buries her baby
The sharp knife of a short life.

The Band Perry, If I Die Young


  1. thinking of you... love, Stacy

  2. This song always makes me think of our babies. Funny that you like it too! I hope you are doing well as Christmas approaches. It is tough! I need your address, friend!

  3. Courtney,

    the picture of you and Ella is just beautiful.

    We plan a "private" Holy Mass in our house the day after christmas and it will be especially dedicated to Ella, Rachel, Anastasha, Sammy, Briar and every baby, that went back to God (and is sitting next to Him now, very, very close).

    Our Mass will also be dedicated to you and the other mothers, who had to give back their most precious gift.

    Please excuse my faults in english. It is difficult to express myself in english.

    Wishing you a somehow bearable day.

    Valentina´s Auntie Lolo (Berlin, Germany)