Pity Party

I am having a bit of a pity party today so you will have to bare with me. I had my regular 20 week ultrasound scheduled for this afternoon. I had made the appointment over a month ago before we had gotten Ella's diagnosis. At my last Dr's appt my doctor had said it was up to me whether or not I wanted to keep this appointment. Jacob and I both said we did. We were looking forward to seeing our little girl and hoping the ultrasound tech could show us exactly where her defect starts and that we could get a better idea of what to expect to see when she is born. I was also looking forward to getting some new pictures of her. Our doctor said that was fine. So my mother in-law took off work early today to watch our kids. Jacob met me at the imaging center and we went in to our appointment.

I went up to the counter and told the lady my name and that I had an ultrasound at 4 o'clock. "I'm sorry but I can't find you on any of our schedules." I told her that I had made the appointment several weeks ago. She called and talked to someone in a different department. Apparently someone from my doctor's office had canceled my appointment the day after I had gotten Ella's diagnosis! I had the lady call and talk to my doctor's office. My doctor's office said they were sorry for the misunderstanding and to go ahead and reschedule my ultrasound. But of course they couldn't squeeze me in today so now I have to wait until Thursday! It was all I could do not to burst into tears at the imaging center!

It just seems like nothing is going our way lately. It's one thing after another. I had been on pins and needles all day anticipating this ultrasound and what we would see. I was excited to see our baby girl again but also nervous about getting a closer look at her defect. I was anxious for this ultrasound and anxious for it to be over at the same time. And then when I realized it wasn't going to happen today and had to talk myself down from bursting into tears and scaring the poor lady behind the counter! It would be nice if just one thing would go like it is supposed to!

So anyway, I have to do it all over on Thursday. So now my mom will have to take off work to watch the kids and Jacob will have to take off early. I will have to drink another 32oz. and hope my bladder doesn't explode! And hopefully this time I will actually get to see my baby and get some answers. So I am a little bit crabby today and having a bit of a pity party. I also have my 20 week Dr's appointment on Wednesday so I will try to update then and then again after my ultrasound on Thursday. Sorry that I don't have anything more exciting to report today. Tune back in later in the week!