Hello!

My blog posts have been few and far between lately and I am sure it will only get worse once this new baby gets here. But I thought I would pop in and update a little bit. I am now 35 weeks pregnant (well I will be tomorrow). I had my OB appt yesterday and I am already 1cm dilated and 50% effaced! She said if I worked outside the home she would tell me I was done working but since I stay at home she wants me to take it very easy for the next 2 weeks to make sure we get to full term. I have never went into labor on my own so I am not really worried about it. I have had to be induced with all my other kiddos so if this one comes on his own I will be totally blown away!

We started our new school year today. Brighton is in 1st grade this year and I am excited to get started on this years homeschool journey. Hopefully it won't get to hairy when we throw a new baby into the mix! Lily will be 5 in October but we aren't starting her on a formal curriculum until next year. But I try to work with her as much as I can while Brighton does his school work. I try to include both girls as much as possible because they like being "big kids" and doing their school work too. They are always excited to show daddy their color sheets when he gets home.

It's hard to believe that it has been 10 months since Ella has come and gone. We are nearing her first birthday. She will be a big sister before she is even a year old. :-) We think about her all the time and talk about her a lot. Especially with the new baby coming. Lilah seems to get confused. A few weeks ago she was sitting on my lap and and was telling me I needed to go to the doctor and get the baby out of my belly. I told her it wasn't time yet and he needed to get bigger before he came out. She gasped and said, "Oh no! We left Ella at the doctor!" I explained to her that we didn't leave Ella at the doctor that she is in Heaven with Jesus. Then when it was time for my next doctor's appt she was throwing a fit and crying and didn't want me to leave and go to the doctor. When I asked her what was wrong she sobbed " I want to go to the doctor with you and see Ella." That broke my heart... Again I had to explain that Ella wasn't at the doctor. So while Brighton and Lily are big enough to realize what has happened Lilah doesn't quite understand it all yet.

So that is just a little update on us. We are moving forward. We are excited for what the future holds but we certainly are not "over it" yet and we never will be. And that's ok.